Speak up. Ask the angels. What do you desire to feel good? A bit of calm and peace and contentment. Whatever it is...surrounded by family? Perhaps time in solitude, reading, imagining, journaling..
Quiet time with Guardian Angels. Remember that GOD is always speaking to us...are we listening? I feel that our Angels are a guide to allow us to make a stronger connection with Spirit.
Take some time to do something this Holiday weekend. Put an idea out there. Could be a small. The important thing is how it makes you feel. Let's feel good!
My Mom suggessted that I get out of the house..go for a ride, go grab a bite to eat. And so we have created it.
I am so excited for this Sunday. I will be enjoying some great clams with Mark and Mom. This resturant (The Marina) is on a Lake. My pepere had 3 camps on this Lake. Many summers up here. Very cool.
Where could you revisit? What new place can you go? Many libraries have DVD's that will take you to another country! That is pretty awesome.
My wish for you is peace.
Thursday, September 2, 2010
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Terminal Brain Cancer
I have been busy! The great news is my legs got feeling somewhat normal for a while. No cane or walker for a time. I am back to the walker now but that is due to other issues.
Just to get the facts out there, the cancer in my brain is getting worse, more lesions and tumors. I have stoppoed treatments and I am in GVNA hospice program. Hospice gives the care to pass peacefully and have best quality of life until God's grace lifts me up and take me home. Stop fighting the body and nuture the soul. Much more about this program coming soon. These women are angels.
How do I feel about the fact they Doctors) said I may make it to xmas with some leeway? I am curious, anxious, excited, confused...and filled with bewilderment.
Next post on heaven and good stuff.
Peace to all of you
Brenda
Just to get the facts out there, the cancer in my brain is getting worse, more lesions and tumors. I have stoppoed treatments and I am in GVNA hospice program. Hospice gives the care to pass peacefully and have best quality of life until God's grace lifts me up and take me home. Stop fighting the body and nuture the soul. Much more about this program coming soon. These women are angels.
How do I feel about the fact they Doctors) said I may make it to xmas with some leeway? I am curious, anxious, excited, confused...and filled with bewilderment.
Next post on heaven and good stuff.
Peace to all of you
Brenda
Friday, July 2, 2010
Ugh-Paperwork and Forms
I have always been drawn to paper. I was cutting magazine pictures and creating collages when I was a kid. Then for over 20 years, my job was processing lots of paperwork...from accounting clerk to staff accountant. Everything from DET papers to health insurance to government reports and taxes. I thrived on "forms"...not so much these days.
Now that I am in charge of my own pile of insurance bills, appointments, I have not been acting as efficiently. That stops here. My goal will be one some action everyday and have all ducks aligned in a row by the 10th. I had 3 different health insurance this year, so things became a bit more complicated. I will get all my ducks in a row one at a time. I can do it! (and so can you)
Do you have some "paperwork" or forms that you have been putting off completion? It certainly will ease your mind. Make decision that once a week or month or whatever that you will file any new receipts. Now it is easy and you will have access at your fingertips.
GREAT TIP:
take your list of medications, doctors, recent test (and results,if possible) anytime you go to a doctors appointment or the emergency room.
Peace & Wellness
Brenda
Now that I am in charge of my own pile of insurance bills, appointments, I have not been acting as efficiently. That stops here. My goal will be one some action everyday and have all ducks aligned in a row by the 10th. I had 3 different health insurance this year, so things became a bit more complicated. I will get all my ducks in a row one at a time. I can do it! (and so can you)
Do you have some "paperwork" or forms that you have been putting off completion? It certainly will ease your mind. Make decision that once a week or month or whatever that you will file any new receipts. Now it is easy and you will have access at your fingertips.
GREAT TIP:
take your list of medications, doctors, recent test (and results,if possible) anytime you go to a doctors appointment or the emergency room.
Peace & Wellness
Brenda
Monday, June 28, 2010
Great News!
GREAT NEWS!!!
WooHoo! There is a change in plans. Not in my plans because I was very confused when they said the brain cancer was growing. It just did not fit with how I was feeling, what I had been visualizing.
Last week I was told there was new cancer growing (not good). Actually, the cancer that remains (in the brain) is from the original findings. The doctor said there was quite a lot so the radiation is still doing its work(it physically ended mid-March).
The Radiation Doc and Oncologist have decided to do an MRI in a few months. I am confident at that time it will be all gone.
The evening before the test, I had some serious communication with Spirit. I am at your service...what is it You have for me to do to make it a better world? Allow me to remain here in pursuit of fulfilling my purpose here on earth.
Feeling great today. My legs and feet are not swollen and I can walk about a bit.
Keeping the Faith
Brenda
WooHoo! There is a change in plans. Not in my plans because I was very confused when they said the brain cancer was growing. It just did not fit with how I was feeling, what I had been visualizing.
Last week I was told there was new cancer growing (not good). Actually, the cancer that remains (in the brain) is from the original findings. The doctor said there was quite a lot so the radiation is still doing its work(it physically ended mid-March).
The Radiation Doc and Oncologist have decided to do an MRI in a few months. I am confident at that time it will be all gone.
The evening before the test, I had some serious communication with Spirit. I am at your service...what is it You have for me to do to make it a better world? Allow me to remain here in pursuit of fulfilling my purpose here on earth.
Feeling great today. My legs and feet are not swollen and I can walk about a bit.
Keeping the Faith
Brenda
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Cancer Testing Back...
When I began this blog, my intention was to assist others going through a similar experience. I feel it is important for you to know where I am in my recovery.
The MRI on my brain was not good. There is much cancer including the lining. The first 14 sessions of radiation really took its' toll. It is quite likely that the bloodclots in my legs which caused me to not be able to walk are from the radiation. I inject myself twice per day with blood thinning meds and I am able to get around a bit again. That's a good thing!
I see my radiolgist on Wednesday to discuss if I can handle a few more sessions of radiation to possibly get rid of some of the cancer.
Doctor Khanani (oncologist) gave me the statistics on my situation-6 mos.-1 year. Do I accept that? It is my decision. That decision will create each new day...each new moment.
Right now, I have all kinds of conflicting, confusing thoughts and feelings. I am going to get out my pen and paper. How do I really feel? What does this mean to me? What positive steps can I take?...and many more questions.
Do things that allow you to feel closer to God by strengthening your spiritual connection. Reading healing and faith scriptures in The Bible helps me...I like to watch Joyce Meyer's and listen only to Christian music.
My goal is to continue this blog with positive information, resources and other things that may assist you.
"If you knew who walked beside you, you would never be afraid."
Keeping the Hope & Faith
Brenda
The MRI on my brain was not good. There is much cancer including the lining. The first 14 sessions of radiation really took its' toll. It is quite likely that the bloodclots in my legs which caused me to not be able to walk are from the radiation. I inject myself twice per day with blood thinning meds and I am able to get around a bit again. That's a good thing!
I see my radiolgist on Wednesday to discuss if I can handle a few more sessions of radiation to possibly get rid of some of the cancer.
Doctor Khanani (oncologist) gave me the statistics on my situation-6 mos.-1 year. Do I accept that? It is my decision. That decision will create each new day...each new moment.
Right now, I have all kinds of conflicting, confusing thoughts and feelings. I am going to get out my pen and paper. How do I really feel? What does this mean to me? What positive steps can I take?...and many more questions.
Do things that allow you to feel closer to God by strengthening your spiritual connection. Reading healing and faith scriptures in The Bible helps me...I like to watch Joyce Meyer's and listen only to Christian music.
My goal is to continue this blog with positive information, resources and other things that may assist you.
"If you knew who walked beside you, you would never be afraid."
Keeping the Hope & Faith
Brenda
Saturday, June 12, 2010
Need Help?
Believe me, I was not real comfortable having people help me with tasks that I could previously do for myself. It came to the point that the pride needed to be set aside. I decided that "it is what it is".
Do you need help? Have you searched out resources? Have you made family and friends aware of your needs? Even if they do not have the time or ability to help you personally, perhaps they know someone...or knows someone that knows someone.
Here's a suggestion on ways to get the help that you need.
(NOTE: As part of my "mind studies" I was taught that "writing causes thinking"...and it really does. Without getting too deep, writing creates a different process in the brain and will create thoughts that you may not have if they had been just fleeting thoughts.)
The first thing is to write down on a piece of paper what you perceive as your needs. Is it really a need or is it a "would be nice"? What is the reason why you feel you need assistance? This wil be helpful when you state your case for assistance request. Next step, write down anything that comes to mind as far as resources. Do not analyze or judge right now...just write it down.
If needed, a visiting nurse is a great benefit to check into with your doctor. After a month at The Legends Rehab, when I was to be discharged, I was offered services which I at first declined. I thought that it would be too much trouble taming our 3 small dogs and besides, I am fine...I don't need any help. Well, I changed my mind and I am so glad I did. My thanks to Ann-Marie and Sarah from the Gardner Visiting Nurses Association. Turns out, they love my dogs and my dogs love them. They have allowed me to feel "safer"...I have lots going on that they keep an eye on.
The American Cancer Society website is a great resource to visit and see what they have that may assist you. Check out their Road To Recovery program that will provide rides to treatments if the patient has limited transportation.
Save some time...I suggest that you talk to a social worker that is available to you either through you doctors office or the facility where you may be receiving treatment. They have access to many resources that will assist you many at low or no cost. (Thanks to Bonnie at AMH)
If you have health coverage issues, speak to a Patient Advocate at your medical facility. (Thanks to Terri Lincoln at AMH.) Terri truly is an advocate! The Legends Rehabilitation Center was an immense help by filing all I needed to get additional coverge with my medical bills.
Your family may be willing to help and all you need to do is ask. You should not assume that they know all your needs. Even though our family and friends love us and are there for us, we must remember that they have a life to be lived. Sometimes, we just have to ask for help.
Help yourself. I encountered this yesterday. I was going to wait for Mark to get home to do something. I thought about it a moment and decided that I could do it and so I did.
Only you can decide if you need help. It is then up to you to find it.
At your service...
Brenda
Do you need help? Have you searched out resources? Have you made family and friends aware of your needs? Even if they do not have the time or ability to help you personally, perhaps they know someone...or knows someone that knows someone.
Here's a suggestion on ways to get the help that you need.
(NOTE: As part of my "mind studies" I was taught that "writing causes thinking"...and it really does. Without getting too deep, writing creates a different process in the brain and will create thoughts that you may not have if they had been just fleeting thoughts.)
The first thing is to write down on a piece of paper what you perceive as your needs. Is it really a need or is it a "would be nice"? What is the reason why you feel you need assistance? This wil be helpful when you state your case for assistance request. Next step, write down anything that comes to mind as far as resources. Do not analyze or judge right now...just write it down.
If needed, a visiting nurse is a great benefit to check into with your doctor. After a month at The Legends Rehab, when I was to be discharged, I was offered services which I at first declined. I thought that it would be too much trouble taming our 3 small dogs and besides, I am fine...I don't need any help. Well, I changed my mind and I am so glad I did. My thanks to Ann-Marie and Sarah from the Gardner Visiting Nurses Association. Turns out, they love my dogs and my dogs love them. They have allowed me to feel "safer"...I have lots going on that they keep an eye on.
The American Cancer Society website is a great resource to visit and see what they have that may assist you. Check out their Road To Recovery program that will provide rides to treatments if the patient has limited transportation.
Save some time...I suggest that you talk to a social worker that is available to you either through you doctors office or the facility where you may be receiving treatment. They have access to many resources that will assist you many at low or no cost. (Thanks to Bonnie at AMH)
If you have health coverage issues, speak to a Patient Advocate at your medical facility. (Thanks to Terri Lincoln at AMH.) Terri truly is an advocate! The Legends Rehabilitation Center was an immense help by filing all I needed to get additional coverge with my medical bills.
Your family may be willing to help and all you need to do is ask. You should not assume that they know all your needs. Even though our family and friends love us and are there for us, we must remember that they have a life to be lived. Sometimes, we just have to ask for help.
Help yourself. I encountered this yesterday. I was going to wait for Mark to get home to do something. I thought about it a moment and decided that I could do it and so I did.
Only you can decide if you need help. It is then up to you to find it.
At your service...
Brenda
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Where are you?
Have you taken time to sit down and write down "where you are"? How do you see the next moment in time? Do you see the "best case scenario" or the "worst case"?
I got kind of stuck here. I was not imagining the worst case scenario but I was not picturing the best case either. Knowing that I create what I think about, I decided those thoughts needed some changing. For instance, I have been to the Atlantis Resort on Paradise Island in the Bahamas but I did not swim with the dolphins which was on my list of awesome things I want to do "some day". Now, I see myself returning there and being with the dolphins. When we went to Hawaii we passed on a helicopter ride over the islands.Now, on my "one day" list.
If you have children in grade school...picture them graduating high school, college, getting married. Whatever works for you to be there in their future.
Keep dreaming, thinking of all the things you want to do "some day". And then start today.
Just imagine....the best case...the happiest, healthiest outcome.
Brenda
I got kind of stuck here. I was not imagining the worst case scenario but I was not picturing the best case either. Knowing that I create what I think about, I decided those thoughts needed some changing. For instance, I have been to the Atlantis Resort on Paradise Island in the Bahamas but I did not swim with the dolphins which was on my list of awesome things I want to do "some day". Now, I see myself returning there and being with the dolphins. When we went to Hawaii we passed on a helicopter ride over the islands.Now, on my "one day" list.
If you have children in grade school...picture them graduating high school, college, getting married. Whatever works for you to be there in their future.
Keep dreaming, thinking of all the things you want to do "some day". And then start today.
Just imagine....the best case...the happiest, healthiest outcome.
Brenda
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Sometimes...Rest is Best!
There really is a reason why the doctor says to "get plenty of rest" as part of the recovery when you pay him a visit. When we are resting, our body goes into "repair and renew" mode. The way I see it is that all of our energy focuses on repair of damaged cells and regeneration activity when we are not awake expending that energy otherwise.
Listen to your body. Rest when you are told. If you are feeling laggard, unfocused, weak...Take a break, take a nap, meditate. To rest, you need not be sleeping. I find what works for me to "rest" is listening to my Christian(The Spirit)XM music station at a low volume so I can just hear the words. The words to the songs create a spiritual, relaxing experience for me.
So...that is "where I have been"....RESTING.
Go now...go take a nap!
Brenda
Listen to your body. Rest when you are told. If you are feeling laggard, unfocused, weak...Take a break, take a nap, meditate. To rest, you need not be sleeping. I find what works for me to "rest" is listening to my Christian(The Spirit)XM music station at a low volume so I can just hear the words. The words to the songs create a spiritual, relaxing experience for me.
So...that is "where I have been"....RESTING.
Go now...go take a nap!
Brenda
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Moving Forward
I have had so much I wanted to share in this past month but was busy working on regaining my health. I will be posting lessons learned and insights from this latest challenge.
Wow...events just keep coming my way and and I just keep moving through them. OH!!..I admit to challenges.
Most Recently...
About a month ago, I just could not walk...period. I went to St Vincent for several days and then off to The Legends Rehabilitation center. Turns out that my legs were quite rampant with blood clots. With some blood thinner medicine(I now get to give myself a shot in the belly 2x daily...woohoo) and some physical therapy, I can now get around with a walker.
FOR NOW!! My intention is to regain full strength, mobility and stability. I can do it!
As I study and research more, it will not only assist me to be healthy on the other side...I CAN HELP YOU! I will pass it on.
I am so grateful to be home with my wonderful husband, my 3 loving puppy dogs and the nature that envelopes our house (and the other 5 buildings on the grounds).
HOME SWEET HOME...Home is a great place to be.
aahhh...
Think about your "home" today. Take a moment to appreciate something that makes you feel comfy and cozy? Spending a month away from my home REALLY made me appreciate it more!!
Peace and comfort
Brenda
Wow...events just keep coming my way and and I just keep moving through them. OH!!..I admit to challenges.
Most Recently...
About a month ago, I just could not walk...period. I went to St Vincent for several days and then off to The Legends Rehabilitation center. Turns out that my legs were quite rampant with blood clots. With some blood thinner medicine(I now get to give myself a shot in the belly 2x daily...woohoo) and some physical therapy, I can now get around with a walker.
FOR NOW!! My intention is to regain full strength, mobility and stability. I can do it!
As I study and research more, it will not only assist me to be healthy on the other side...I CAN HELP YOU! I will pass it on.
I am so grateful to be home with my wonderful husband, my 3 loving puppy dogs and the nature that envelopes our house (and the other 5 buildings on the grounds).
HOME SWEET HOME...Home is a great place to be.
aahhh...
Think about your "home" today. Take a moment to appreciate something that makes you feel comfy and cozy? Spending a month away from my home REALLY made me appreciate it more!!
Peace and comfort
Brenda
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Relax...Get a Fish
Relaxation and peace are an important part of the recovery process. It serves us well to surround ourselves with things that promote feelings of peace and serenity.
Saturday I am going to find "GRACE"-my fish. I have already decided on the name. I am visualizing a light blue/silvery with some yellow. Whatever the case, I know when I pick one out, it will be the right one for me.
I always get a betta fish. Beautiful, hearty, easy to care for. Cost...about $10. A great investment in your peace.
I have a glass (octagon shape)bowl on hand from prior. I fill the bottom with round stones of many colors and put in one structure (cave, tunnel). I clean once a week and it takes about 15 minutes. Well worth the benefit.
Also, I have a mini-waterfall fountain. It is about 10" square and about 8" tall. Water bubbles and streams down over patina green stairs creating a very relaxing sound and a pleasant visual. Of course, I added some stones on the stairs and some other cool stuff at the base.
Water...it is all about the water. We are made of mostly water and it allows the spiritual flow of our inner being to connect to our natural inner peace. The peace is there, it is really a matter of allowing it.
What do you say...are you ready for a fishie? Is it time to explore a fountain?
Consider your options..water will serve you well.
Relax...make it a peaceful day.
Brenda
Saturday I am going to find "GRACE"-my fish. I have already decided on the name. I am visualizing a light blue/silvery with some yellow. Whatever the case, I know when I pick one out, it will be the right one for me.
I always get a betta fish. Beautiful, hearty, easy to care for. Cost...about $10. A great investment in your peace.
I have a glass (octagon shape)bowl on hand from prior. I fill the bottom with round stones of many colors and put in one structure (cave, tunnel). I clean once a week and it takes about 15 minutes. Well worth the benefit.
Also, I have a mini-waterfall fountain. It is about 10" square and about 8" tall. Water bubbles and streams down over patina green stairs creating a very relaxing sound and a pleasant visual. Of course, I added some stones on the stairs and some other cool stuff at the base.
Water...it is all about the water. We are made of mostly water and it allows the spiritual flow of our inner being to connect to our natural inner peace. The peace is there, it is really a matter of allowing it.
What do you say...are you ready for a fishie? Is it time to explore a fountain?
Consider your options..water will serve you well.
Relax...make it a peaceful day.
Brenda
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Memory Tools
I would like to share some memory tools that have assisted me with the wish that they will help you.
One of the areas of my brain that are being effected right now is my memory and cognitive areas. So, I asked myself, what can I do to assist myself better in these areas and how can I help others do the same?
I want to share some memory tools and ideas that may serve you if you are experiencing a memory challenge right now.
Some of these are from my sister Jean who has MS. She found some small things that make a big difference. Here we go...
1)TIMER
I have a little square PYREX kitchen timer. It is great...fits right in your pocket. You can set it for 30 seconds or 6 hours. Whatever time increment will serve you.
The timer right on your kitchen stove comes in handy,too. I have found that I will hook one of our 3 puppy dogs out and 10-15 minutes will go by and my intention was more like 5 minutes. Now, I just set the clock timer for 5 minutes.
Use these timers for many things-
need to call someone, need to take a med, want to catch a certain show...whatever you want.
2)STICKY NOTES
These sure are handy! I have been in love with these for years. I use the flag ones a lot for flagging great quotes or special pages in my books. Use the square ones for reminders around the house. Be free with them...don't hold back. Use them to jog your memory and remind you of tasks to accomplish during the day. Do you have an appointment? Need any meds to pick up?
3) LISTS
I admit, I love my lists! I keep a clipboard full of blank papers that I am welcome to write stuff down as it comes to mind. I recycle any of my office papers that were only used on one side. Also, I found several notebooks that had "old stuff" in it. Just tear out those pages and you have a "new" notebook. Re-use the back of junk mail. There is paper everywhere...use it.
4) PUZZLES AND GAMES
These will keep our memory train moving. Now, I'll be honest, I like search-a-words, jig saw puzzles and crosswords...they are okay. I do not generally spend time on them. I do feel at this point, they are important to strengthen my memory and cognitive skills. I have a bit of a challenge "connecting-the-dots" sometimes. The games and puzzles certainly assist there. Also, I play Mah-Jong. A computer game in which you match up tiles. Again, connect the dot stuff.
5) ASSOCIATION
Find things that you can "hook-up" with other events. For example, Mark (my wonderful husband) calls me from work at 9 AM to chat a few minutes on his break. Well, 9AM happens to be anti-seizure med time so it is a good "hook-up". I always remember my pill.
What associations can you make that can hook things together?
My sincere wish is that you discovered something here today that will assist you. If you have some tips to share...please do. Myself and others will appreciate that. Thank you.
Whatever you do, remember to make it a great day.
Peace & Wellness
Brenda
One of the areas of my brain that are being effected right now is my memory and cognitive areas. So, I asked myself, what can I do to assist myself better in these areas and how can I help others do the same?
I want to share some memory tools and ideas that may serve you if you are experiencing a memory challenge right now.
Some of these are from my sister Jean who has MS. She found some small things that make a big difference. Here we go...
1)TIMER
I have a little square PYREX kitchen timer. It is great...fits right in your pocket. You can set it for 30 seconds or 6 hours. Whatever time increment will serve you.
The timer right on your kitchen stove comes in handy,too. I have found that I will hook one of our 3 puppy dogs out and 10-15 minutes will go by and my intention was more like 5 minutes. Now, I just set the clock timer for 5 minutes.
Use these timers for many things-
need to call someone, need to take a med, want to catch a certain show...whatever you want.
2)STICKY NOTES
These sure are handy! I have been in love with these for years. I use the flag ones a lot for flagging great quotes or special pages in my books. Use the square ones for reminders around the house. Be free with them...don't hold back. Use them to jog your memory and remind you of tasks to accomplish during the day. Do you have an appointment? Need any meds to pick up?
3) LISTS
I admit, I love my lists! I keep a clipboard full of blank papers that I am welcome to write stuff down as it comes to mind. I recycle any of my office papers that were only used on one side. Also, I found several notebooks that had "old stuff" in it. Just tear out those pages and you have a "new" notebook. Re-use the back of junk mail. There is paper everywhere...use it.
4) PUZZLES AND GAMES
These will keep our memory train moving. Now, I'll be honest, I like search-a-words, jig saw puzzles and crosswords...they are okay. I do not generally spend time on them. I do feel at this point, they are important to strengthen my memory and cognitive skills. I have a bit of a challenge "connecting-the-dots" sometimes. The games and puzzles certainly assist there. Also, I play Mah-Jong. A computer game in which you match up tiles. Again, connect the dot stuff.
5) ASSOCIATION
Find things that you can "hook-up" with other events. For example, Mark (my wonderful husband) calls me from work at 9 AM to chat a few minutes on his break. Well, 9AM happens to be anti-seizure med time so it is a good "hook-up". I always remember my pill.
What associations can you make that can hook things together?
My sincere wish is that you discovered something here today that will assist you. If you have some tips to share...please do. Myself and others will appreciate that. Thank you.
Whatever you do, remember to make it a great day.
Peace & Wellness
Brenda
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Dr. Khanani
My oncologist really does have my best interests and concerns in mind. Dr. Khanani at Athol Memorial Hospital is a great doctor. I have to be honest, at first I was not so comfortable. In all fairness, it was not him but yet the capacity of my relationship with him.
My doctor visit the other day could have been better. I have some balance, steadiness and strength issues with my legs right now. Turns out I have a blood clot in my leg. Due to something with the radiation I received, I cannot receive a thinner to break up. So, I spent Tuesday night at the hospital awaiting a procedure the next day to have a little umbrella thing inserted my artery in my neck. If the clot travels, my lungs, brain and heart are safe. That's cool.
I had a bone scan today as part of ongoing watch. I know already that is is clean...my bones aren't the kind that like cancer. It willl have nothing to do with it.
Thanks to Dr. Khanani for taking such good care of me. The whole staff at Athol Memorial Hospital is great. People that truly care. I am very grateful.
Moving forward....
Brenda
My doctor visit the other day could have been better. I have some balance, steadiness and strength issues with my legs right now. Turns out I have a blood clot in my leg. Due to something with the radiation I received, I cannot receive a thinner to break up. So, I spent Tuesday night at the hospital awaiting a procedure the next day to have a little umbrella thing inserted my artery in my neck. If the clot travels, my lungs, brain and heart are safe. That's cool.
I had a bone scan today as part of ongoing watch. I know already that is is clean...my bones aren't the kind that like cancer. It willl have nothing to do with it.
Thanks to Dr. Khanani for taking such good care of me. The whole staff at Athol Memorial Hospital is great. People that truly care. I am very grateful.
Moving forward....
Brenda
Sunday, March 14, 2010
Good Vibrations
It's all about the VIBE! I am spending time to specifically raise my vibration. You can look at this VIBE as your overall attitude.
Your attitude is a composite of your thoughts, feelings and actions. Thinking positive thoughts, feeling good feelings and taking right actions.
When I find myself not feeling so positive, I recognize that I am allowing these feelings and that they are not serving me. I see that I have a choice right now to change these thoughts to ones with a better vibration.
Here try this...CHANGE YOUR VIBRATION! We are energy...we get to direct that energy into channels that will serve us and make us strong and happy.
Ideas to change that vibe...
-call someone you love and ask them to share some good things going on with them
-Watch a feel good movie
-Do something you love
-Listen to Christian Music (this serves me very well)
-Google things that interest you online...lots of FREE good stuff
-Pray for others
-Send out thinking of you cards
-Enjoy some nature
-Get a beautiful nature pic book (lots of feel good photos FREE online, too)
You can do it! You have the power to change that vibration and FEEL GOOD!
Sending love and good vibes!!
Brenda
Your attitude is a composite of your thoughts, feelings and actions. Thinking positive thoughts, feeling good feelings and taking right actions.
When I find myself not feeling so positive, I recognize that I am allowing these feelings and that they are not serving me. I see that I have a choice right now to change these thoughts to ones with a better vibration.
Here try this...CHANGE YOUR VIBRATION! We are energy...we get to direct that energy into channels that will serve us and make us strong and happy.
Ideas to change that vibe...
-call someone you love and ask them to share some good things going on with them
-Watch a feel good movie
-Do something you love
-Listen to Christian Music (this serves me very well)
-Google things that interest you online...lots of FREE good stuff
-Pray for others
-Send out thinking of you cards
-Enjoy some nature
-Get a beautiful nature pic book (lots of feel good photos FREE online, too)
You can do it! You have the power to change that vibration and FEEL GOOD!
Sending love and good vibes!!
Brenda
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Sunshine
I am so appreciating and enjoying the abundance of sunshine that has been around. Sunshine makes you feel good...well, it does me anyway.
Spring is a great time to gain a new perspective on growth. Time to add something new to your life, something to put a spring in your step.
What would make you feel alive and growing? Pick up a simple house plant that you can enjoy and tend to. Put a porch swing/canopy in the yard...go sit and sway in nature a while. Even park it on a rock, or stump and just "be" out of doors. Walk around the yard. Enjoy a bird feeder or two.
We have great surroundings...6 acres of woods and nature...nice. I enjoy it!
How are you going to celebrate spring?
Totally enjoy your day today.
Brenda
Spring is a great time to gain a new perspective on growth. Time to add something new to your life, something to put a spring in your step.
What would make you feel alive and growing? Pick up a simple house plant that you can enjoy and tend to. Put a porch swing/canopy in the yard...go sit and sway in nature a while. Even park it on a rock, or stump and just "be" out of doors. Walk around the yard. Enjoy a bird feeder or two.
We have great surroundings...6 acres of woods and nature...nice. I enjoy it!
How are you going to celebrate spring?
Totally enjoy your day today.
Brenda
Monday, March 8, 2010
Awesome Days
Man...I have been on cloud-nine! Just so many great little things going on in my life. They have built up to happiness as part of the "synergistic effect" (the whole is greater than the sum of its' parts). Enjoy your day.
Brenda
Brenda
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Feel the Love
I am so grateful for the medical care I am receiving. Now that I have had a seizure and cannot drive, I am even more grateful for the American Cancer Society Road to Recovery Program. They make sure that you can get to all your treatments. The men and woman that drive for the program are angels...they truly are.
I want to take a moment to mention a few. I do have a favorite because we talk Deepak Chopra and Wayne Dyer. Peter is a great guy with big goals and a big heart. I love talking to him. He shines a loving, powerful spirit and always is in a great vibration.
Bob is another great guy that helps many people including his elderly brother. Bob is kind and very patient...it is never about him and his schedule.
Ron is another wonderful man. He works at the former LaChance Rehab Center (now Legends). He is a kind of counselor that lends spiritual guidance. He is very involved in his church and is very loving and caring. I really admire him. There are lots of great caring people out there and I am so grateful and blessed to have met these people.
If you have an open afternoon or day (or you know someone that does), the Road to Recovery Program can always use more drivers! There was a stipend but I am not sure if they are running on any funds. The gas may end up out of pocket. But, believe me, it will be a few dollars well spent because getting to our treatment is very important and much appreciated.
Today was a very good day.
Brenda
I want to take a moment to mention a few. I do have a favorite because we talk Deepak Chopra and Wayne Dyer. Peter is a great guy with big goals and a big heart. I love talking to him. He shines a loving, powerful spirit and always is in a great vibration.
Bob is another great guy that helps many people including his elderly brother. Bob is kind and very patient...it is never about him and his schedule.
Ron is another wonderful man. He works at the former LaChance Rehab Center (now Legends). He is a kind of counselor that lends spiritual guidance. He is very involved in his church and is very loving and caring. I really admire him. There are lots of great caring people out there and I am so grateful and blessed to have met these people.
If you have an open afternoon or day (or you know someone that does), the Road to Recovery Program can always use more drivers! There was a stipend but I am not sure if they are running on any funds. The gas may end up out of pocket. But, believe me, it will be a few dollars well spent because getting to our treatment is very important and much appreciated.
Today was a very good day.
Brenda
Saturday, February 27, 2010
I am Back
Well, I guess I stood by my "don't dwell on what you do not want". That would explain my lack of posts. The cancer has left my body from the neck down. It does turn out that my brain did get its' hand on some.
It is different with this round. I had a siezure which lead to the tests that showed the lesions and tumors in several places in my brain. I have more physical side effects with this challenge. I have balance and steadiness issues, dizzy, light headed, hear noises (like ringing, tapping, dripping), memory and cognitive issues. Also, I still have swallowing issues that never went away from the lung radiation treatments. I have a candida fungus in my throat which makes it difficult and uncomfortable to swallow and often begin to choke while eating. I am expecting these to go away as the cancer does. Only one more week of brain radiation.
But, honestly, I am doing very well. I will post more soon.
Moving forward
Brenda
It is different with this round. I had a siezure which lead to the tests that showed the lesions and tumors in several places in my brain. I have more physical side effects with this challenge. I have balance and steadiness issues, dizzy, light headed, hear noises (like ringing, tapping, dripping), memory and cognitive issues. Also, I still have swallowing issues that never went away from the lung radiation treatments. I have a candida fungus in my throat which makes it difficult and uncomfortable to swallow and often begin to choke while eating. I am expecting these to go away as the cancer does. Only one more week of brain radiation.
But, honestly, I am doing very well. I will post more soon.
Moving forward
Brenda
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