The Hair Loss Thing

Well, my hair is on its' way out. The word was 2-3 weeks after first chemo session it would begin to fall out. Yep, just about right. It has been filling the brush with long strands. My hair is very long, past my waist. I have had long hair for over 20 years and it is a part of me. It seems very odd to think of the extreme opposite...no hair.

I was a bit sad at first, thinking about losing my hair until I put things in perspective. My ego had a brief comment: "Everybody knows me by my hair, I am told what nice hair I have...I don't want to lose it, it is part of who I am....(and on and on). And then my spirit stepped in and reminded me that I am not my body just as I am not the things I own (we never really "own" anything). I am a spiritual creation of God. My body (including my hair) is the vessel that allows me to have the experience of a human. It has nothing to do with who I am being.

When we live by our egos, we are not living by Spirit. Our ego has us thinking that it is important what others opinions of us are, it has us thinking that it is important to be right, to always think our way is the best way. Whatever is going on in the external world, you are wondering "what does this mean to me? how is this serving me?"...always focused on me, me, me. Ego thoughts do not allow us to be harmony with Spirit. Spirit is about serving others and having good thoughts. To be in harmony with God, we must be on the same frequency or vibration.

When we are feeling upset, confused, worried or other feelings that don't make you feel good, you know that you are not in harmony with Spirit and you are allowing your ego to control your feelings. I realized that about my hair loss. First of all, I am experiencing hair loss...that is a fact. Now, all I can do is move forward. This week I am going to get my first wig and some caps and kerchiefs.

I know from my training and studies of how our mind works that anything new and different (whenever we leave our comfort zone) will set up a "foreign vibration" and cause some discomfort and confusion. My mind has no personal cells of recognition, nothing to align with as an experience. So it is okay to be a bit confused, nervous or whatever when you really understand the reason. There is nothing to be afraid of just move thru it.

Look for the positive. They say sometimes if you had straight hair it may grow back in curly. That's good, I always wanted curly hair. A new-do would be a good change too. I like hats but never really had any nice ones. It's time to get some cool hats!

To your health
Brenda